Sunday, November 25, 2007

Ki li'olam chasdo...


Hodu laShem ki tov......


He
is
so
good.


Sometimes I fail to see it
Sometimes I don't even try to see it
But it's there
Plainly staring me
in the face
If I sincerely want to see it...


He is good, so good...


I stand before Him
head bowed
tears
I want to be good
I really want to change
Really....please...

And
He listens

He answers
Takes my hand and
Whispers
so quietly that I only hear it inside
Look, mamaleh,
My child...
I love you more than you'll ever know...
I will hold you
Guide you
Show you
Forgive you....

You're never alone...

And I feel it

I am never alone
He is with me
Holding me
Guiding me
Showing me
Forgiving me

Loving me...

And granting me so much kindness
More than I'll ever know
More than I'll ever deserve...


Chasdei Hashem ki lo samnu,
ki lo chalu rachamav...

All scars fade. He is so good to me...

14 comments:

B said...

How i wish i could really feel this - i envy you reaching this stage. Yes I know it but i want to feel it, i want to feel Him holding my hand, i hate this feeling of lonliness, of floating with no anchor.

Bas~Melech said...

Did something wonderful happen or are you just appreciating life? Because if there's something wonderful going on, I want to hear about it ;-) Otherwise, I will simply admire your spirituality.

Scraps said...

הודו לה' כי טוב כי לעולם חסדו

May you always be זוכה to feel His חסד all around you, in all parts of your life.

(((HUGS)))

AT PEACE said...

Oh to live with that recognition...a lofty yet attainable goal...one of the keys to happiness and tranquility

Beautiful writing! Keep 'em coming!

halfshared said...

Beautiful. Just keep on believing..and always keep your eyes open (besides for when you sleep). There is so much good out there.

corner point said...

B--
You'll get there. I promise. Just believe you can...that's the only thing that will bring it...

Bas--
Something wonderful did happen, but it's something that others would not consider as wonderful as it is to me. Hard to describe without saying it all out, which I can't...
You can admire my spirituality if you want :-P

Scraps--
Amen....and same to you!
How do you get Hebrew in there?

Peace--
Thank you, and I plan to, G-d willing!
:)

Halfshared--
There's a mayla in sleeping with one's eyes open, too
:-P

Scraps said...

I've got an option to switch to Hebrew on my keyboard, that's how. :)

corner point said...

Scraps--
Ah, sneaky sneaky
:-P

pobody's nerfect. said...

i just like you.

ויאמין באמונה שלמה שה' השפיע משפיע ישפיע לו היום

:-D

The Dreamer said...

wow, we've got a spirual one here!
lol.

beautiful. just beautiful.

b said...

For how long exactly? cus 11 years is obviously not long enough!

corner point said...

Po--
Like you too, hon :-)
Feel free to make me a new one with "Ki chasdecha gadol alai" or "chasdei Hashem ki lo samnu"
Always have room for more!
:P

Dreamer--
Thanks. And if you think this is spiritual... :-P

B--
:'-(

I'm so sorry. I wish I could tell you when it'll come...but that's not how our lives work...

But I should tell you that although I have reached a point where it's easier for me to see it, I'm not completely there yet. It takes a lifetime of work to be that close to Him...

David_on_the_Lake said...

wow.
I love feeling that connection..
sometimes we feel so distant..its truly breathtaking when we reach the state you describe..

StillinShidduchim said...

This is so beautiful...thanks for sharing.